This week will be a hard slog. 3 days at work and summer camp, then off camping Wednesday evening. The trailer isn’t ready! The house is a bomb site after a week off making memories. This weekend was a bust after getting totally plastered with the school mums on Friday. Saturday spent hungover on the sofa and today my eibs feel like the are completly bruised and cracked! A humongous pile of laundry to get through. It is also my baby brothers 21st birthday tomorrow. Am I an awful human being for being thankful that he doesn’t want a family meal, we really don’t have the time. Then it is my brother-in-law’s birthday on Tuesday and parentals anniversary on Wednesday. Which is just adding to a long list of things to do. I am huge on family and it isn’t the obligation that it sounded like! I just wish I had more hours in the day to do what needs to be done and celebrate with the people who matter and still manage to get some proper sleep.
I can but dream and persevere
I just need to send this out into nowhere. Hoping it will clear my heart and head; that I can then get over the guilt and move on.
I’m nearly at the end of a week off work for the summer holidays. Now the holidays are 6 weeks long so I feel kind of a failure. And to top it off, I failed at arranging a single play date for my 6 year old. I will admit I was starting to worry…. Is he not liked, do the other children just not want to play with him.
Now obviously I can’t just ask a parent out right, as no parent wants to tell another that their kid doesn’t want to play. I’ve found there are two reasons for this- 1 Kids are fickle. One day they act like they have never met each other and the next are best friends. 2 What if one day that is their child, or what if said child has a party, and then their kid isn’t invited. Believe me, after standing in a playground listening to conversations, some parents actually think like this. I will admit to then clocking which is their child and make a note to see if they are as calculating as the parent!
Should I be worried, I doubt it! I think it just self flagellation to the mummy guilt of crappy parenting. I left it kind of late to arrange, and once you ask one parent, you need to wait for a response before inviting another child. Which led to a reply on Wednesday for plans on Thursday & Friday. Turns out most of his school friends are on holiday or too short notice!
He was invited to 1 play date this week and turns out that she had problems with people responding, being busy and in one case, just forgetting. But this still didn’t ease my guilt, made worse by me sending him to the parentals for a night so we, i.e me hubby and friends can go bowling. I will point out that his Grampy is his hero and apart from daddy, is his favourite person. This still doesn’t assuage my mummy guilt
So I have done my best to keep him happy and entertained this week. But have I just made a rod for my own back. Now every school holiday he will expect 2 activities a day and constant entertaining!
So now I find myself planning ridiculous things in my head and thanks to Pinterest, for the next half term!
Will we ever learn and let kids just be bored?
I’m having a play around with some new formats. I’m not happy with how it looks. It doesn’t reflect who I am. How our family dynamic works. So I’m going to be trying a few different things.
I’m even researching courses to get myself back up to speed on social media. I’m enjoying being on Instagram. Its easy and quick and now I have found that I can post on the go to here on the app here’s hoping I get regular posts on here.
Thanks for reading
Don’t judge your beginning
By someone elses middle
This is my new feature. Every week I will post pictures from the previous week. It will only be 5-7 pictures, with only a caption to describe it. Nothing arduous.
I will post about other things, in more detail or to strike up a discussion. Or to just ramble on and get my crazy thoughts out of my head. Or just because I found a beautiful quote I want to share.
Yes I am still around. I have just reread my last post and realised how long its been since I blogged, and that I had loads and loads of stuff to share that had happened before then. And loads since. So this week I will be writing everyday to catch you all up.
Stay with me, we’ve been busy.
See you tomorrow
Thanks for still reading
Have you ever had that moment when you know the answer but just have no recall at all!!!!
Well I’m there. I found a blog a while ago as I was wasting time on the web. I had it bookmarked on my phone and never got round to saving it on here. Then I dropped my phone. Smashed the screen to bits. So I sent it off to be fixed.
I was warned that it would be completely wiped. But I felt confident that I could remember the name. I’d been reading the blog for a couple of months. But I can’t. I’ve tried scouring the web to no avail.
If you recognise any of these clues or have a suggestion to how I can find it again.
ALL HELP WILL BE GRATEFULLY RECEIVED
I think the blog has the word “Realistic” in it. (Helpful aren’t I)
The picture on the home screen is of a lady with dark hair. One side of her face is perfectly done and ready for the day. The other is what real life with kids can sometimes be like. Makeup smeared from the night before with hair sticking up all over the place.
The author is a teacher who has, if memory serves me, 3 children. They live in Australia. Recent posts include the story of her caesarean births, preparing children to be school ready and another I can remember is summer fun, her list of things to do and her one rule.
Its probably gone forever and I’m feeling sad and a little bit ridiculous because of it.
Thanks for reading guys